Just earlier on while James and I were putting Jayden to sleep, as usual Jayden would like to play play play non-stop even though he was so tired... I try to only let him nap once a day so that he won't have problems going to sleep at night. If he sleeps in the evening, I make sure it's 30 mins the most, otherwise we will take forever to put him to sleep.
Anyway back to the subject, while we were putting him to sleep, we both lied down in the middle of him. Jayden was in his 'mabok' state (drunkard state) standing up, falling down and doing it over and over again. Finally he just flopped and lied down beside me, his arms holding my arm and slept off. He has done this before, but everytime he will wake up again then flop right in the middle of the bed and konk off to sleep.
But tonight, it was different.... he slept right next to me, holding my arms... It was a moment in time for me, I felt so touched! Tears just filled my eyes and cascaded down to the bed, James looked at me and murmered, 'he's so cute... so touching right' Yes, Jayden really touched my heart, he's such a loving and affectionate boy. I felt as if he was like a newborn again, so cuddly and dependent on me. I will really miss these moments. I also felt guilty recalling all the times I raised my voice at him.
Like it or not, the clock is always ticking, time is passing by swiftly and Jayden will only grow bigger and bigger! At times like this, I wished the time could stop now! As a boy, when he grows bigger, I hope he will not be shy with affection with his mummy :) Mummy is always here for you with open arms and mushy kisses!